Panic arises
My heart is pounding
As fast
As horses hooves
Pound around the racetrack
I take a pill
Hoping it will calm me down
I gulp
Like a fish out of water
I take another pill
Wanting calm to surround me
Once and for all
Tears spill
My head pounds
I lay down
Too tired to do or say
Anything
The pills take effect
I fall asleep
At last
With one last thought
Before my eyes close
What will tomorrow
Bring?
CHRISTINE'S BLOG
Welcome! I love to write, and I love sharing what I write with my readers. I vary my style as much as I can-posting events, creative non-fiction, prose and poetry and the occasional video. Enjoy!
Miigwetch
Christine
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Monday, November 17, 2014
Events
Events:
Thursday November 20, 2014-Bundle Teaching with Amy
Desjarlais! This THURSDAY, 2pm-4pm . The
teaching will be followed with an activity and sharing circle to learn about
what you carry in your own bundle.@ the Native Women’s Resource Centre.
Everyone welcome!
Thursday
November 20, 2014-3pm- Transgender Day of Remembrance Flag Raising@ Toronto
City HallThis year the trans flag will be
raised at Toronto City Hall for the first time. Join the community at Toronto
City Hall for the proclamation and ceremony.
Thursday November 20, 2014-Explore the challenge with us in a discussion of This
Changes Everything, by Naomi Klein. Please come even if you haven't had a
chance to look at the book.
Thursday, November
20, 6:45-8:45 p.m. (Please
be prompt.)
Community Centre 55,
97 Main St. (south of Gerrard)
TTC tokens available upon request.
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** At the meeting, connect with our
subcommittee on municipal work against Line 9.
** Check out our blog: NEB panel member calls process a ‘public deception'.
Saturday, November 22, WORN Fashion Journal will get
your inner kitten out of the alley and onto the dance floor with our BLACK CAT
BALL. Dovercourt House
805 Dovercourt Rd, Toronto
Scratch at the door: 9:00 PM
Meow for a taxi: 2 AM
Black and White Dress desired but
not required.
ADMISSION PRICE - $15
Includes admission and a
dangerously delicious copy of WORN Issue 19/20.
ADVANCE TICKETS $15 – AVAILABLE
HERE
A limited amount of tickets will
be available at the door - orders yours now.
THIS IS A LICENSED EVENT.
Saturday November 29, 2014- 6pm- Speak
For Tears: A Vigil for Missing and Murdered Women, Men and Children. Join Us as we
hold a Candle Light Vigil for Missing & Murdered Indigenous Women, Men, and
Children on Saturday, November 29th @ Dufferin Grove Park in Toronto.
Speakers Include Jenn Mt.
Pleasant, Leighann Ford, actress Tantoo Cardinal and More.
Stay tuned for more details.
Monday, November 10, 2014
Weekly Events
Events:
November 11, 2014-10:00m Honouring Our Native Veterans on Remembrance Day. Old City Hall
November 14, 2014-
6pm-Shameless Magazine 10th Anniversary Gala and Inaugural Shamie
Awards
When: Friday,
November 14th, 2014
Where: Urban Space Gallery @ 401 Richmond st. West
Time: 6:00-9:00 pm
19+ event
Venue is accessible.
Unfortunately, due to lack of interpreter availability, we regret to announce that there will be no ASL interpretation at this event.
Every dollar we raise goes directly to funding Shameless magazine, helping fuel our mission to bring needed alternative voices to the media landscape.
Tickets are $20, and can be bought online (https://www.eventbrite.ca/e/shameless-magazines-10th-anniversary-gala-the-shamie-awards-tickets-13402313681) or at the door.
Where: Urban Space Gallery @ 401 Richmond st. West
Time: 6:00-9:00 pm
19+ event
Venue is accessible.
Unfortunately, due to lack of interpreter availability, we regret to announce that there will be no ASL interpretation at this event.
Every dollar we raise goes directly to funding Shameless magazine, helping fuel our mission to bring needed alternative voices to the media landscape.
Tickets are $20, and can be bought online (https://www.eventbrite.ca/e/shameless-magazines-10th-anniversary-gala-the-shamie-awards-tickets-13402313681) or at the door.
November 14, 2014- 7-9pm- Book Launch: Red Skin, White Masks: Rejecting the Colonial Politics of Recognition
Historical Materialism Toronto invites
you to join us for the Toronto launch of:
Red Skin, White Masks: Rejecting the Colonial Politics of Recognition
by Glen Coulthard
Joined by: Lee Maracle, discussant
When: Friday, November 14th, 7 – 9 pm
Where: Beit Zatoun - 612 Markham St. (Bathurst subway station)
Red Skin, White Masks: Rejecting the Colonial Politics of Recognition
by Glen Coulthard
Joined by: Lee Maracle, discussant
When: Friday, November 14th, 7 – 9 pm
Where: Beit Zatoun - 612 Markham St. (Bathurst subway station)
November 15,
20141-4pm-
Spiderwoman Theater – A Retrospective & Panel (FREE)
University of Toronto, Multi Faith Centre 569 Spadina Ave. Native Earth
Performing Arts, Indigenous Performing Arts Alliance (IPAA) and Native Women in
the Arts present SpiderWoman Theatre-
November 15-16, 2014-9:00am-5pm-INTERSECTION: Entrepreneurship & Indigenous Arts ConferenceCost: Free
Registration: https://intersection-conference.eventbrite.ca/
Program: http://www.research.ocadu.ca/research-and-innovation/home
INTERSECTION will be a unique gathering of Indigenous artists, entrepreneurs, academics and students, telling success stories. The keynote speaker is Dr. Jessica Metcalfe. Stemming from enduring appropriation of Indigenous material culture, Dr. Metcalfe will speak about how her blog Beyond Buckskin applied entrepreneurship as a platform to address local and global social issues. Three distinct panels will expand discussions on emerging business ideas and social innovation approaches. A series of practical workshops using design thinking and a NEW flourishing business model methods will allow attendees to practice and test their ideas for scaling up and sustainability.
The conference will:
- Highlight successful examples of Triple bottom line (Financial, Social, Environmental) enterprise
- Provide practical tools and workshops for students and aspiring entrepreneurs - Provide success stories of income generation for organizations looking for ways to replace government funding
- Address intersections and breakdown barriers between creative and business types
intersection.conference@gmail.com
Registration: https://intersection-conference.eventbrite.ca/
Program: http://www.research.ocadu.ca/research-and-innovation/home
INTERSECTION will be a unique gathering of Indigenous artists, entrepreneurs, academics and students, telling success stories. The keynote speaker is Dr. Jessica Metcalfe. Stemming from enduring appropriation of Indigenous material culture, Dr. Metcalfe will speak about how her blog Beyond Buckskin applied entrepreneurship as a platform to address local and global social issues. Three distinct panels will expand discussions on emerging business ideas and social innovation approaches. A series of practical workshops using design thinking and a NEW flourishing business model methods will allow attendees to practice and test their ideas for scaling up and sustainability.
The conference will:
- Highlight successful examples of Triple bottom line (Financial, Social, Environmental) enterprise
- Provide practical tools and workshops for students and aspiring entrepreneurs - Provide success stories of income generation for organizations looking for ways to replace government funding
- Address intersections and breakdown barriers between creative and business types
intersection.conference@gmail.com
November 15 2014-9:30pm-Bold As Love Presents: Lal Sweet 16th Anniversary with guest Moe Clark!
@ the Gladstone Hotel. Come celebrate lal's
sweet 16 anniversary, new video and website launch with special guest Moe Clark
(from Montreal)
BOLD AS LOVE is a new music series curated and dedicated to supporting and uniting POC and Indigenous Artists on the same stage! Everyone is welcome!
$8-20 Sliding Scale
djs: Pursuit Grooves / Deejay LEllo Mello L'Oqenz
BOLD AS LOVE is a new music series curated and dedicated to supporting and uniting POC and Indigenous Artists on the same stage! Everyone is welcome!
$8-20 Sliding Scale
djs: Pursuit Grooves / Deejay LEllo Mello L'Oqenz
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
Review-The Comeback
Review: The Comeback
By: Christine Smith
(McFarlane)
The Comeback is a timely book in the sense that it is written at a time in which the political landscape of Canada is changing in both the non-Aboriginal world and the Aboriginal world.
John Ralston Saul
delves into many theories and explanations of why Canada is shaped the way that
it is in his new book The Comeback. He also calls upon all Canadians to rebuild
their relationship with Aboriginal people because it is the centrality of
Aboriginal issues and peoples that has the potential to open up a more creative
way of imagining ourselves and a more honest narrative for Canada.
In The Comeback, he
writes “for the last hundred years Aboriginal peoples have been making a
comeback- a remarkable comeback from a terrifyingly low point of population, of
legal respect, of civilizational stability, a comeback to a position of power,
influence and civilizational creativity” but I beg to differ on this statement
and find it to be misleading.
I find it to be
misleading because as a First Nations woman, I believe that the current state
of affairs in Canada is not about a comeback. First Nations people have always
been present and we have always had our rights and have known where they come
from. Furthermore, a comeback from a terrifyingly low population is not a
result of our own actions, but a result of the dominant takeover of European
peoples-colonization.
Our ways of life, our
economic well being, social well- being and food sources were jeopardized. European
diseases that were brought through contact were particularly destructive and
Aboriginal peoples lives were lost. I have always understood that there is a
deep contradiction in the reality and the mythology of Canadian life. Saul
backs this up by stating “it was in the forty years before the European civil
war began that Canadians of European origin decided that “Indians,”
“Half-breeds” and “Esquimaux” were among the destined losers when faced by our
superiority-our Darwinian destiny.”
Our Canadian history
can also be viewed through a racialized lens. Saul writes “The structures
within which Aboriginals must work have been artificially put in place by
governments, largely by London and Ottawa, actively supported by provincial
governments. He goes on to say “And what are these structures? Treaty versus non-Treaty Indians. Status
versus non-Status Indians based on what are effectively complex calculations of
blood.”
When looking at
history and the definition of who is Aboriginal and who is not, I find it
interesting that Saul states in his book A Fair Country: Telling Truths About
Canada that Canada is a Metis civilization heavily influenced and shaped by
Aboriginal ideas, but then in The Comeback he states “Canadians who do not
think of themselves as Aboriginal will go on misleading themselves as to what
is now happening.” This leads me to think that he believes everyone is
Aboriginal or maybe I am just misunderstanding this viewpoint, because we
(First Nations) are the original peoples of this land, and it is not those who
have come and settled in what we now call Canada.
He goes onto to say
that “our standard national history portrays the turn of the nineteenth into
the twentieth century as an era of creativity and nation building,” but it was
also at the exact time, in the same country, Indigenous peoples were dying or
suffering or not reproducing because of the terrible conditions to which they
had been reduced, and doing most of this in small communities, out of the sight
and mind of the largely European Canadian population.”
Another commentary I
am uncomfortable with is the idea that Indigenous peoples have made a comeback
due to the events of 2012 and the Idle No More Movement. I believe that
everything began a lot sooner than that. There are several pivotal moments in
Aboriginal history that paved the way for us to be where we are today. You just
need to think of the example of OKA and the voices of solidarity then.
John Ralston Saul
writes a wide narrative that may seem pivotal when it comes to speaking of
citizens rights and the rebuilding of relationships that were central to the
creation of Canada, but I believe it will take a lot more work for the general
Canadian public to reach a point where they will understand First Nations
peoples and the issues at hand. It’s more than just getting the narrative
right, and it is more than just being informed and conscious. We do not see
ourselves as victims and it is not sympathy that we want. Taiaike Alfred argued
that “reconciliation can mean something if it starts from the position of
restitution. And I believe that is something to begin with.
Lastly, the whole term 'comeback' rings false because it is the Euro-Canadian opinion of First Nations people where they see us in society.
Lastly, the whole term 'comeback' rings false because it is the Euro-Canadian opinion of First Nations people where they see us in society.
The Comeback by John
Ralston Saul is published by the Peguin Group, Penguin Books Canada and is 294
pages.
Monday, October 6, 2014
Review: Legacy by Waubgeshig Rice
Review:
Legacy Written By: Waubgeshig Rice
Published By: Theytus Books
Pages: 192
Reviewed By: Christine Smith (McFarlane)
“Legacy” written by Waubgeshig Rice is a bold yet haunting
story of what can happen to a family when tragedy hits them too often. The Gibson family has to deal with an
unfortunate accident that takes their parents away from them, and then not long
afterwards, the oldest sister Eva Gibson is killed in downtown Toronto.
Eva Gibson, leaves the northern community of Birchbark to
become a University student in downtown Toronto. The odds seem stacked against
her as she struggles with being one of a only a couple of Anishnaabe students
trying to make her way through the education system and city life. She is also
in a hurry to finish her education so that she can return home to serve her
community.
Tragedy ensues when she lets her guard down one night and
goes with friends to a local bar. She meets a young man while intoxicated and
he ultimately kills her when they leave the bar together, and he brings her
into a dark alley to try and take advantage of her.
The death of Eva brings on a string of troubles for the
surviving members of her family.
Her brothers and sister already struggling with how to deal with the
loss of their parents, are met with more tragedy when they learn of their
sister’s untimely death. Some turn to ceremony and some turn to alcohol, but
each member is haunted by a creeping sentiment of revenge when it comes to the
absolution of their sister’s death and her killer.
Legacy boldly looks at the truths and stereotypes that First
Nations peoples often face in their struggle to leave the reservation and move
to the big city. The truths can be uncomfortable and make you cringe but it is
these truths that Rice speaks of that must be addressed and talked about.
Events
Events:
Monday October 6,
2014-6:30pm-9pm-Inconvienent Indians: Reflecting on the Past in Canada's Future with Thomas King
Inconvenient Indians”: Reflecting on the
past in Canada’s Future
Opening Lecture by Dr. Thomas King
Monday October 6 evening
Time: 6:30pm-9:00pm
Location: TRS-1067 (55 Dundas Street West)
Opening Lecture by Dr. Thomas King
Monday October 6 evening
Time: 6:30pm-9:00pm
Location: TRS-1067 (55 Dundas Street West)
Moderated by:
Hayden King, Director of the Centre for Indigenous Governance & Assistant Professor of Politics, Ryerson
Closing Remarks by:
Dr. Cyndi Baskin, Chair, Aboriginal Education Council, Ryerson
ASL interpretation provided.
For more information on Social Justice Week 2014: A Different World Is Possible:
A week of events, keynote speakers, art exhibits, actions and cultural events to transform Ryerson into a hub of social justice and solidarity in Toronto.
Website: www.ryerson.ca/socialjustice
Twitter: @RyeGindinChair
Email: tsf@ryerson.ca
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/events/351637421671811/?context=create&source=49#
Hayden King, Director of the Centre for Indigenous Governance & Assistant Professor of Politics, Ryerson
Closing Remarks by:
Dr. Cyndi Baskin, Chair, Aboriginal Education Council, Ryerson
ASL interpretation provided.
For more information on Social Justice Week 2014: A Different World Is Possible:
A week of events, keynote speakers, art exhibits, actions and cultural events to transform Ryerson into a hub of social justice and solidarity in Toronto.
Website: www.ryerson.ca/socialjustice
Twitter: @RyeGindinChair
Email: tsf@ryerson.ca
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/events/351637421671811/?context=create&source=49#
Wednesday October 8,
2014-7pm-9pm From Ferguson to Toronto: Examining Race, politics and Scholarship with Dr. Melissa Harris-Perry
-Mandela EDI Social Justice Annual Lecture
From Ferguson to Toronto: Race, Politics, and Scholarship
A Public Lecture by Dr. Melissa Harris-Perry
Tuesday October 8
7 to 9 pm
TRSM 1067 (55 Dundas Street West)
From Ferguson to Toronto: Race, Politics, and Scholarship
A Public Lecture by Dr. Melissa Harris-Perry
Tuesday October 8
7 to 9 pm
TRSM 1067 (55 Dundas Street West)
October
9, 2014-7-9pm Gender & The City: A Mayoral Debate
@ YWCA Toronto, 87 Elm Street On October 9th, Toronto's
leading mayoral candidates will convene for Gender and the City, a live debate
hosted at YWCA Toronto’s Elm Centre and moderated by award-winning journalist
Denise Balkissoon.
Candidates will field questions about how their positions on issues ranging from affordable housing to safety and city planning will impact the lives of women and transgender people in Toronto. Olivia Chow and John Tory have confirmed their participation. Doug Ford received an invitation shortly after declaring his candidacy.
The event will provide a unique opportunity for candidates and residents alike to reflect on the gendered implications of city issues. The debate is co-organized by Toronto Women's City Alliance, YWCA Toronto, North York Women's Centre (NYWC), METRAC, Women in Toronto Politics and the Toronto & York Region Labour Council Women’s Committee.
ASL interpretation and live note-taking will be provided, and child-minding will be available on site. The venue is accessible for those with mobility devices.
Candidates will field questions about how their positions on issues ranging from affordable housing to safety and city planning will impact the lives of women and transgender people in Toronto. Olivia Chow and John Tory have confirmed their participation. Doug Ford received an invitation shortly after declaring his candidacy.
The event will provide a unique opportunity for candidates and residents alike to reflect on the gendered implications of city issues. The debate is co-organized by Toronto Women's City Alliance, YWCA Toronto, North York Women's Centre (NYWC), METRAC, Women in Toronto Politics and the Toronto & York Region Labour Council Women’s Committee.
ASL interpretation and live note-taking will be provided, and child-minding will be available on site. The venue is accessible for those with mobility devices.
Wednesday October 15,
2014- Bold As Love co presents: Kinnie Star (CD release) ,
Janet Panic and d'bi young!
$10-12!
BOLD AS LOVE is a new music series curated and dedicated to supporting and uniting POC and Indigenous Artists on the same stage! Everyone is welcome!
This first show is in collaboration with Kinnie Star's Cd release and national tour featuring Janet Panic and the amazing d'bi young!
COME OUT AND SUPPORT!
Tickets at the Door! PRICE TBA!
$10-12!
BOLD AS LOVE is a new music series curated and dedicated to supporting and uniting POC and Indigenous Artists on the same stage! Everyone is welcome!
This first show is in collaboration with Kinnie Star's Cd release and national tour featuring Janet Panic and the amazing d'bi young!
COME OUT AND SUPPORT!
Tickets at the Door! PRICE TBA!
Monday, September 29, 2014
Events
Events:
Sisters
In Spirit Week 2014 - 5 Days of Events prior to Sisters in Spirit Vigil
Mon. Sept. 29: Art workshop – Understanding Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women (MMIW) through art. 10am-12:30pm and 1:30-4pm at NWRCT. Facilitated by Red Pepper Spectacle Arts. ALL WOMEN WELCOME.
Tues. Sept 30: Media Day- raise awareness about MMIW through handing out flyers.
Wednesday, Oct. 1: Hand drumming with Amy Desjarlais. 10am-12pm. Drop in and learn three different women's honour songs.
Sweetgrass Ceremony – Private healing ceremony for families who are affected by MMIW with Grandmother Wanda Whitebird. 1:30-3:30pm at NWRCT. Please contact 416-963-9963 ex. 212.
Thursday, Oct 2: Letter writing campaign with Amnesty International and Button Making with Native Youth Sexual Health Network. 10:30am-12:30pm at NWRCT.
NWRCT Presentation and Teach-in: Dispelling Stereotypes about Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women. 5-7pm at NWRCT with Dr. Suzanne Stewart and Lee Maracle. Open to general public.
Friday, Oct 3: Social Media Campaign to raise awareness about Sisters in Spirit and MMIW. Tweet, Facebook, etc.
Sat. Oct 4: Sisters in Spirit Vigil. Join us in Allan Gardens from 6:30-8:30pm. All welcome. See https://www.facebook.com/events/1469168156683383/?fref=ts
Mon. Sept. 29: Art workshop – Understanding Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women (MMIW) through art. 10am-12:30pm and 1:30-4pm at NWRCT. Facilitated by Red Pepper Spectacle Arts. ALL WOMEN WELCOME.
Tues. Sept 30: Media Day- raise awareness about MMIW through handing out flyers.
Wednesday, Oct. 1: Hand drumming with Amy Desjarlais. 10am-12pm. Drop in and learn three different women's honour songs.
Sweetgrass Ceremony – Private healing ceremony for families who are affected by MMIW with Grandmother Wanda Whitebird. 1:30-3:30pm at NWRCT. Please contact 416-963-9963 ex. 212.
Thursday, Oct 2: Letter writing campaign with Amnesty International and Button Making with Native Youth Sexual Health Network. 10:30am-12:30pm at NWRCT.
NWRCT Presentation and Teach-in: Dispelling Stereotypes about Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women. 5-7pm at NWRCT with Dr. Suzanne Stewart and Lee Maracle. Open to general public.
Friday, Oct 3: Social Media Campaign to raise awareness about Sisters in Spirit and MMIW. Tweet, Facebook, etc.
Sat. Oct 4: Sisters in Spirit Vigil. Join us in Allan Gardens from 6:30-8:30pm. All welcome. See https://www.facebook.com/events/1469168156683383/?fref=ts
September
30, 2014-The Red Revue presents Midnight Shine with Special Guest Jace Martin and the Pace
The Red Reuve presents an Album Release
Party for Midnight Shine- “Northern Man”
Special Guest
Jace Martin and the Pace
Tickets $10
Doors Open 7:30 p.m.
Open Mic 8 p.m. - 8:45 p.m.
Jace Martin and the Pace 9:15 p.m. - 9:45 p.m.
Midnight Shine 10:15 p.m. - 11:15 p.m.
September 30
Tuesday
Hard Rock Cafe
Toronto
For more info, email millie.andpva@gmail.com.
Special Guest
Jace Martin and the Pace
Tickets $10
Doors Open 7:30 p.m.
Open Mic 8 p.m. - 8:45 p.m.
Jace Martin and the Pace 9:15 p.m. - 9:45 p.m.
Midnight Shine 10:15 p.m. - 11:15 p.m.
September 30
Tuesday
Hard Rock Cafe
Toronto
For more info, email millie.andpva@gmail.com.
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